I know this sounds obvious, but I really don’t mean to cry over the ridiculous things that I end up crying over…I don’t cry because I want you to give me attention, to comfort me; in those moments I just want to crawl into a corner and huddle up in a ball away from civilisation.. So in case it happens again, just leave me alone and I’ll sort myself out because little things you do will tend to set me off again.
覺得這一句形容的很好：
天秤座的人永遠都為自己的一時衝動而後悔；脾氣來得快也去得快；永遠都是嘴硬心缺很軟；總是在最熟的人面前瘋瘋癲癲；在朋友傷心難過時永遠都是第一個出現安慰，卻不會把自己的不快樂帶給別人，但只要爆發，誰也按耐不住。
I don’t think I would’ve cried in the lesson anyway, but the moment I heard ‘It’s okay’ I just burst, because nothing felt ‘okay’ at that moment in time. It was like the world has crashed and broken up into a million pieces leaving me unprotected in a giant nothingness. A whole week of revision for mocks/AS exams just meant a lot of pressure accumulated, and the entire day I was getting my results back. What really disappointed me wasn’t just the fact that I didn’t do particularly well, it was more that I felt S1 was the only exam I was confident in and seeing how I lost 25 marks in that just completely killed my confidence levels. At that moment, it felt like the last hope I had had vanished away… So I did even worse in chemistry.. but I was expecting it – not as bad, but I wasn’t aiming too high.. I still really want to do well in these exams though, so I’m gonna try hard and do my best! (My motivation levels are quite low at the moment so I’m trying to re-motivate myself)
A motivational quote from when I was watching 粉愛粉愛你 today.. First time I turned on my laptop in 4 days!
樂蒂：我現在的心情就很像是那種我明明就很努力，可是卻永遠達不了終點… 然後我就開始懷疑我自己是不是做不到，會不會一切都白費力氣了
毛弟：當你自己發現你已經停下來的時候，你再回頭看看從前的自己 -回憶- 從那一天起，我才明白我的人生不能再只爲自己而活。（宇傑對我這麼好，幫我 這麼多，就算這些挫折教我絕望，我也不想讓他失望…這就是我一直往前走的 初衷）
樂蒂：我覺得你說的對，我好像也忘了我自己的初衷是什麽。我應該要好好把 握這一次的機會，不要再讓那些愛我的的人對我失望。
【粉愛粉愛你 第13集 （夏樂蒂&毛弟）】
I felt exactly like that =(