I know this sounds obvious, but I really don’t mean to cry over the ridiculous things that I end up crying over…I don’t cry because I want you to give me attention, to comfort me; in those moments I just want to crawl into a corner and huddle up in a ball away from civilisation.. So in case it happens again, just leave me alone and I’ll sort myself out because little things you do will tend to set me off again.
I don’t think I would’ve cried in the lesson anyway, but the moment I heard ‘It’s okay’ I just burst, because nothing felt ‘okay’ at that moment in time. It was like the world has crashed and broken up into a million pieces leaving me unprotected in a giant nothingness. A whole week of revision for mocks/AS exams just meant a lot of pressure accumulated, and the entire day I was getting my results back. What really disappointed me wasn’t just the fact that I didn’t do particularly well, it was more that I felt S1 was the only exam I was confident in and seeing how I lost 25 marks in that just completely killed my confidence levels. At that moment, it felt like the last hope I had had vanished away… So I did even worse in chemistry.. but I was expecting it – not as bad, but I wasn’t aiming too high.. I still really want to do well in these exams though, so I’m gonna try hard and do my best! (My motivation levels are quite low at the moment so I’m trying to re-motivate myself)
A motivational quote from when I was watching 粉愛粉愛你 today.. First time I turned on my laptop in 4 days!
毛弟：當你自己發現你已經停下來的時候，你再回頭看看從前的自己 -回憶- 從那一天起，我才明白我的人生不能再只爲自己而活。（宇傑對我這麼好，幫我 這麼多，就算這些挫折教我絕望，我也不想讓他失望…這就是我一直往前走的 初衷）
【粉愛粉愛你 第13集 （夏樂蒂&毛弟）】